I don’t know how else to put this, but I fucking miss my brother so much. Lately I’ve been having some bad luck when it comes to relationships, from boyfriend to friends, and from friends to family. Why? I have no clue. I can’t find any valid reasons. Maybe because what they say about me is true. Maybe I am heartless. Maybe I am a nobody. Funny. Maybe that’s why I connect with Kingdom Hearts so much, and probably why I love Kingdom Hearts so much. I feel like I’m always fighting for a reason to live, a reason to exist like Roxas. For me and not just for my brother, who made me value video games, and who made me feel. I told someone that he was my soul mate. They got awkward because they didn’t understand. To me a soul mate is someone who is put on this earth to make you feel. I don’t think soul mates are about being in love, I think its about a connection , your other half, your partner. I think your soul mate could be your best friend, or your brother, or some stranger. It’s about sharing something that connects you for life. Even when one of you is gone. “If two people share one, their destinies become intertwined. They’ll remain a part of each other’s lives no matter what.” My brother and I didn’t share a fruit, we shared a memory. This is my story for my next tattoo. Which will look something like this, with a quote around it. 
I cry every time I hear a song from the soundtrack. Because it makes me happy, because it makes me miss you.
“Thinking of you, wherever you are.”
